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Meditating Through A Crisis

“In the midst of movement and chaos, keep stillness inside of you.” Deepak Chopra

Sunday morning started out like any normal day (since coronavirus that is.) But what began as a nice morning being enjoyed outside having coffee with my neighbor and her kids quickly turned to an unexpected trip to urgent care! As we sat chatting in my driveway while her kids played and drew with sidewalk chalk I was bitten by two fire ants. Now, I’ve been bitten by fire ants before, so I didn’t think anything of it. When they became itchy I excused myself to put some cortisone cream on the bites. But after about ten more minutes I began to itch all over and I started coughing and had a difficult time swallowing! I calmly told my neighbor that I was going to go inside and immediately went into my room and pulled up my shirt to discover my torso was covered in hives. As the minutes passed I could feel my throat closing and told my husband he needed to get me to the urgent care that was a few miles from our house.

I’ve been certified in CPR and First Aid training for years now and had the presence of mind to know that I was having an anaphylactic reaction to the bug bites. My husband’s adrenaline quickly kicked in and within a few more minutes we were in the car and on our way. Needless to say, he might have sped and ran a red light to get me to care as quickly as he could!

Luckily, we arrived at the urgent care facility during a time when they were not packed with many patients and after they determined the nature of the emergency they took me in right away. As the clock slowly ticked and I answered questions they confirmed what I already knew. If you’ve never experienced an anaphylactic reaction where your throat swells and you have difficulty breathing I will say, it’s an experience like no other! Even after they administered the epi-pen into my thigh and a shot of steroids into one arm and Benadryl into the other I had to wait for all of the medicine to kick in and calm down the storm in my body. The nurse helped me count out my breaths inhaling, one, two, three, four. Exhaling, one, two, three, four. But looking back to when the episode began I realized that a sort of calm washed over me as I was able to think each step through knowing full well that this could be a life-threatening emergency!

"By replacing fear of the unknown with curiosity we open ourselves up to an infinite stream of possibility. We can let fear rule our lives or we can become childlike with curiosity, pushing our boundaries, leaping out of our comfort zones, and accepting what life puts before us." Alan Watts