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I don't know how, but....

Updated: Sep 28, 2019


"Cultivating genuine self-trust is at the heart of living and loving fully." – Tara Brach

I’m on a flight home from San Francisco right now…When I planned this trip to California about 9 months ago I didn’t know HOW I was going to make it happen. Only that it HAD to happen. I felt it with all of my being and I decided that nothing would stop me. We were going to California to visit my family SOMEHOW. I just didn’t know how at the time.


Many times, in the past I also had the thought that this was the year we were going to make it out west for vacation. And then I would begin to think about HOW. It definitely wasn’t in the budget and after the financial crash of 2008 we did not have any credit, nor did we want to use credit. After a short time trying to figure it out, I would give up on the idea altogether. But this year when the thought entered my mind, I decided that there must have been a missing ingredient in the past. And that it wasn’t about the money. It was about my beliefs and trust. I quickly realized that I never truly believed that it was possible. I didn’t have faith. That was kind of a gut punch for me, but once I discovered that it was my lack of faith that was holding me back I was able to shift my thinking. Instead of letting doubt take over, I decided to be ALL IN. From that moment forward I KNEW we were going.


As the months passed I went about life and worked, went to my kid’s activities and took care of the household. But during that time, I started to become very intentional about saving and planning for the trip. And a magical thing happened. As I took steps in planning our trip my faith grew and a path started to clear. Brene Brown’s definition of faith sums it up well- “Faith is a place of mystery, where we find the courage to believe in what we cannot see and the strength to let go of our fear of uncertainty.”


"Faith is taking the first step even when you can't see the whole staircase."- Martin Luther King, Jr.

So, how do we exercise our faith? By putting our own health and well-being above everything and anyone else. When we make our self-care practice a priority, we strengthen our innate abilities to accomplish personal goals, foster more meaningful relationships and connect with our community. Practicing The Four Seeds of Self-Care supports us from the inside out. Each time we say yes to ourselves it’s like putting on a suit and cape and becoming our own superhero. We are fortified in our mental, physical and emotional health. Our kryptonite is our own self-doubt and lack of self-love. But the moment we DECIDE to trust and believe the Universe jumps in to support us.